Building Trust in God
How do you react when life doesn’t go as planned? Do you stress? Do you lay down at night and worry? Do you ask what am I doing wrong? Do you ask what can I do to fix this? Or are you building trust in God? Well, I have been stressed, dealing with anxiety and want to bury my head in the sand. Through all the struggles in my life God continues to stretch and grow me with building trust in Him. Each time I feel I have “arrived” at learning to trust God completely, He graciously reminds me there is always room to grow. If I can have the faith for Him to save me why can’t I trust him enough to follow through with what He has promised.
Back in October the Lord was beginning to show me and prepare me for what was ahead. My devotions were constantly about Abraham and his faith. Even the messages from church would be about Abraham or having the faith to face the giants. I knew that the next months would not be easy. Every passage I read would lead me to faith, trusting, relying. Hebrews 11:6 “But without faith it is impossible to please him; for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.” This verse is powerful! When we come to God we already are acting on faith knowing He is in control. BUT, the hard faith comes when we continue to come and our valley turns into a mountain.
When God stretches our faith He does it because He wants us closer. He wants us to follow Him no matter what mountain is in front of us. Each time God stretches us, it is to prepare us for a bigger mountain. I am thankful that God doesn’t take a dump truck all at once and say “here learn to trust me”. Looking back at the things God allowed in my life I can see over the years how He was growing me to trust him more each and every time. I have felt the loss, the heartache, the isolation and yet in the end God brings peace. That peace comes from trusting Him. I understand that I will never “arrive” at trusting God because I am not perfect. But His love for me is perfect and His plan for me is perfect.
I had mentioned before that our family has been on a roller coaster for almost 5 months. We sold our house back in December after trying to sell for 3 years. During which we had a contract with and then they backed out. Then we remodeled the house hoping it would sell quicker. It didn’t. If you have sold a house you know the agony of the constant perfectionism. We may have lived in a “house” but that last year it was not a “home”. We cleared out everything. My kids were left with Legos and American Girl dolls that was it. But, God was preparing! We searched for land for 3 years and nothing. But, God was preparing! Our plan was to buy land and live in a 5th wheel till we saved enough money to build. But, God was preparing! We finally received a contract on the house back in September and we were so relieved. We just knew God was going to have that land for us. Then we found out, our first week of December closing date was canceled and we were looking at January of 2018 till we could close. At that point I was ready to thrown in the towel. We had sold everything and we were all sleeping on the floor. We had no Christmas tree, no decorations, and none of our normal family traditions. It was a dollar tree stocking with a few gift cards. I was done with this emotional roller coaster of we sold the house, oh, wait, no we didn’t sell the house.
I was no different than the Israelites when God brought them out of Egypt. He did incredible miracles and met the needs of his people and yet they murmured. In Exodus 16:3 (kjv) And the children of Israel said unto them, Would to God we had died by the hand of the Lord in the land of Egypt, when we sat by the flesh pots, and when we did eat bread to the full; for ye have brought us forth into this wilderness, to kill this whole assembly with hunger. It’s easy for us to read the Bible and look at the children of Israel as complaining little children that are not grateful for what God has done for them. It’s easy to point the finger because we know the outcome. In our own lives, how much do we complain when God has brought us out of slavery and we are met with a dessert. I look back, and God has brought us through miscarriages, job loss, quitting a job, going back to school, children in the NICU, surgeries, medical bills, strife, isolation, loss of friendships, I could go on and on. What kind of God would allow me to sell every bit of our furniture, TV’s, kitchen appliances, dishes ect. and then, not sell a house? It took selling a giant chicken coop to get my attention. We had a huge chicken coop that we had no idea what to do with because it was so large. My father-in-law built the coop and spent around $1,200 on materials. This was a hotel for chickens. Top of the line material, it looked like a house. We did not want to leave it but we couldn’t move it either. I posted it on Craigslist on a Tuesday (this was during the Christmas holidays) for $400 and put in the description that “who ever bought it is responsible for pickup and it had to be out by that Saturday”. I did not think that coop would sell (once again my unbelief) and I get a phone call the next day that a farmer wants the coop. He showed up Friday paid the $400 and said he would be back that evening to get it. We came home that night and it was gone. That might not seem like much to you but it was our little miracle. God was showing me He is in control if I would just let go and let Him work. He was preparing me for the phone call that the buyers contract would be falling through and our closing date would be canceled once again. We got that phone call and I looked at my husband and said “It will be fine. God sold our chicken coop.” God already knew that I needed that coop to sell as affirmation that He was in control. Apparently, selling everything we owned was not enough! Hahaha.
We finally closed on that house 2 days before the new year even though we were told the contract fell through. God took care of everything. He placed me in a position to trust Him and to let Him take control. I had already done my part. Now everything was in His hands. He gave us the promise 5 years ago and He delivered in His timing and His plan. Notice I said 5 years ago. God is in no hurry to get things done. We are the ones that get in a hurry. We can worry, stress and get discouraged but it won’t change anything. God will continue with patience and love to put our life together in HIS plan. We know the miracles that God did in the Bible and He is still that same amazing God. Hebrews 13:7-8 (kjv) Remember them which have the rule over you, who have spoken unto you the word of God: whose faith follow, considering the end of their conversation. Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever.
I look forward to sharing with you the land God has provided our family, but, there was a mountain attached. Along with that land came an ugly house that we are so thankful for. We are in the process of a complete gut job. Anyway, my husband and I have made numerous tough decisions throughout life that involved taking a risk. Having to trust God and step out in faith. We have had moments that God said do and there was nothing in place. There were times it didn’t come into place until months later. Once again, my valley turned into a mountain. Psalm 34:17-22 (kjv) The righteous cry, and the Lord heareth and delivereth them out of all their troubles. The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous; but the Lord delivereth him out of them all. He keepeth all his bones: not one of them is broken. Evil shall slay the wicked; and they that hate the righteous shall be desolate. The Lord redeemeth the soul of his servants: and none of them that trust in him shall be desolate. Every mountain we face God brings us closer to Him. In life the closer we get to someone the more we trust them. The same thing happens as we build our relationship with God. Our trials, struggles, prayers, time in His word teaches us to trust and let go. The key to trusting God is building a relationship with Him each and every day. This journey will be a lifetime marathon not an overnight sprint. So, remember Proverbs 3:5-6 (kjv) Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding, in all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
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